Coisas em inglês.

These have been a crazy bunch of days.

I don't really remember the last time I wrote something here. All I remember is I was happy. For a few days, I was happy and I thought the meds were finally working.

But since classes started, I've been feeling like shit. Not constantly, but often. Too damn often, if such thing exists. I cry because of every single thing. I cry because my friends are happy. I cry because one of my best friends has a new boyfriend and they look cute together. I cry when someone asks me when is our course meeting to discuss our classes. I cry because of everything. And then I laugh. Because it's stupid to cry for such things, and other people laugh because I cry for those things. So I cry and laugh at the same time. And then when I stop laughing, the crying also stops. And if someone counts down from 5, I cry at the end. And then laugh. And this keeps repeating over and over again.

Yesterday night I spent quite some time talking to Mark.

Mark is a guy I know from an online game, and I actually don't know if that's his real name or if he really is 19 years old, or if he really is Irish. I just know I talk to him on almost a daily basis, but never about me. Mainly we talk about the game.

Except a few days ago we went in-game crazy and got in-game married. And since then we've talked more often. And last night, instead of talking in the clan chat with everyone else, we went on an in-game date. He took me to a place no one goes to, and we sat down on the floor, and we talked for hours. And I don't care if he's not 19 or if he's not Irish or if his name isn't even Mark, because he stayed there with me for hours, and listened to my problems, and respected me. And I love that about him, whoever he is in real life.

We also talked about movies, and series, and cultural differences, and language differences, and everything we could think about.

I just hope we can have another in-game date some time in the future, because it really kept me from thinking of my own problems.

And that helped.

And that might be the reason I just wrote everything here in English right now.